Bit of a dilemma just now. Not sure what to do. When El's mum heard I was going up to Aberdeen on Saturday 16th April (our 1st year anniversary) she suggested I helped work in Golden City's counter. I kind of got trained by El on Friday night and worked the Saturday. Uncled tried to pay me but I declined because I felt since it's a one-off it's fine because I eat theirs and stay in their house all the time it just wouldn't feel right. Uncle gave the money to El and I then took £10.

I plan to go up again on Saturday 22nd May. El said she wonders if auntie would once again suggest I work in the takeaway on Saturday night. To be honest, given the chance I'd prefer not to. I'd prefer to go up and hang and relax. My main aim is to see El to be honest, not to work. If I wanted to work I'd stay and do overtime in Glasgow. I am meant to be off duty you see. If I work, then Honda loses his pay which is a shame really. He might prefer to go out to hang, but he'd still lose money.

If I work on Sat I would look happy on the outside but inside I'd wish I didn't have the pressure. I would only do it to keep El happy and her parents happy, so they'd like me. If I don't do it, would I look like a lazy bug? Would they think less of me? If I don't do it, will auntie allow El to come stay over one night in July before we visit the youth summer camp? Hiy!! Very hard here!

I can only pray that auntie does not suggest I work in the takeaway that night - please!! It's in God's control. This I can only pray for God's help.

I really don't mind taking a few orders now and again and help them out when both El and Honda are busy, but to take Honda's place I'd rather not.

I'm not going to mention this prayer to anyone - just between my Father and myself.

Will will happen? Only time will tell...